If you haven't already, please read Scene 1 first. You can read it
here. In this post, I have detailed some key events from my daily routine from June 25th (day before Michael Jackson died) to July 8th (completion of his memorial service).
June 25th, 2009A.M. Crazy day in the office, preparation to send Investment Committee Meeting Notice to all Investment Committee Members.
P.M. Left work around 9 p.m. Felt really uneasy driving home, right eye was twitching. Call me superstitious but I was really worried and prayed nothing was wrong. The last time my right eye twitched I did a big boo boo at work.
June 26th, 2009A.M. Woke up late, feeling uneasy still. Muttered a short prayer in hope I have not made any big boo boo that could cost me my job. Reached the office approximately 9.15 a.m., got into the elevator. A guy who works on the 9th floor told me that MJ has died. I opened my eyes in surprise, and asked him how he died. He didn't know. I unconcernedly said I will google about it later. Got in to the office and was absorbed with work as usual. Totally forgot to google about MJ's death.
P.M. Went to see Transformers with a friend @ Cineleisure. Such a fabulous movie, loved it.
June 27th, 2009A.M. Woke up late, was supposed to go see the skin doctor. Texted my cousin to see whether she wanted to go to the gym instead, since we were supposed to watch Blood (a movie) @ The Summit Subang anyway. Received a confirmation from her around 10.30 a.m. so picked her up and off to breakfast then the gym (had personal training @ 12 noon).
P.M. Reached the Summit, had lunch and then queued up 1.5 hours just to get our movie tickets. And it was such a crappy + lame movie. Gosh! But it was a good day spent just catching up with her.
June 28th, 2009Spent the whole day with family, bracing myself for the tough week ahead @ work.
June 29th, 2009Crazy day in the office, preparation to send Investment Brief to Investment Committee Members (via email first). Left work almost 12 midnight.
June 30th, 2009Crazy day in the office, preparation of Investment Brief for all Investment Committee Members. Preparation for all documentation in anticipation of affirmative Investment Committee Decision to call for EGM and to make capital call.
July 1st, 2009Crazy day in the office, last minute changes for Investment Brief. Started listening to MJ's songs.
Pretty impersonal emotions wise.
July 2nd, 2009Crazy day in the office, the much awaited Investment Committee Meeting! Reached an affirmative decision, notice to EGM sent! Capital call to be delayed. Still listening to MJ's songs. Thought what a sad time it was for the world to have lost such a great talent.
July 3rd, 2009A.M. Another crazy day in the office in preparation of partners' trip to the US - incorporation of SPV & NewCo. Handled influx of queries from investors. Watched (and listened to) MJ's MVs.
P.M. All documents signed. Started reading up on MJ's death. Started feeling really sad about his passing. Partners safely on flight enroute to NY. Hung out with a friend after gym.
July 4th, 2009
A.M. Hung out with parents. Bought some MJ momentos - CDs, DVDs, even a magazine issued as tribute to him.
P.M. Emotions fluctuating. Couldn't quite pin point what I was feeling. Shock seemed to set in.
July 5th, 2009
A.M. Woke up totally depressed and really felt like being alone. Texted J to let her know (supposed to go for Jap class).
P.M. Hung out all day with family. Very distracted and sad. Was really quiet. Spent most of the day on the internet watching MJ's "Living with Michael Jackson" interviews (conducted by Bashir sometime in 2003) and the rebuttal videos later. Felt really angry and sorry for MJ. First few drop of tears flowed when I got home and watched MJ's "Earth Song" MV.
July 6th, 2009A.M. Woke up pretty okay, went to the bank. Listened to MJ's songs on the way to the office. Suddenly felt a stab to the heart. It is confirmed - I was heartbroken. There was a void in the heart. Was fidgety all day.
P.M. Went to the gym to ease frustration. Tried to force some tears out whilst listening to MJ's songs on the way home (andwatching MJ's MVs at home later that night). Failed. Felt frustrated. Texted an ex-bf that I once cared for deeply - please make me cry! It hurts not being able to! He texts back - he is in London (not that I think he could really succeed but hell I really was THAT desperate).
July 7th, 2009A.M. Couldn't shake off the feeling of being rather depressed. Heart ached, couldn't cry. Learnt that the memorial was 1 a.m. July 8th, 2009. Went for lunch alone. Listened to more MJ songs. Suddenly broke out in flux of tears on the way back to the office. The tears were not satisfying. Couldn't completely cry it out.
P.M. Concerned friends tried to console me. But all I wanted to be was to be left alone. I shut myself up in my room waiting for MJ's memorial to begin.
July 8th, 20091 A.M. to 4 A.M. Watched the memorial. Needless to say, a lot of tears fell. Still in a state of shock, I cannot believe he has left us. A deep cut remains in my heart.
P.M. Had a chat with a friend who helped me sieve through my confused emotions. Felt compelled (and encouraged) to write this post.
~Here ends Scene 2~